Me The Inspired Heart (Trying to write again.-Trying hard to bring back the passion I lost along the way)

My blog is already one year old last December 6,2008
I'm thinking what makes blogging inspired me?
(I post for a moment,and start to realize,and ask myself).
What's really the purpose of my blogging?
As I said this blog is dedicated to myself.
Because I'm already tried of giving myself to other people.
(Not letterally given my self to others,but what I've shared to them).
As I go on with my life...I make a border to other people,so at the end
I wouldn't be hurt anymore.
But there is something is missing.
This is not me anymore.
The essence of my personality is gone.

I need to change course again.
Back to the old Angie before.
But only in my positive side.

I realize that helping others and touching others life is really my passion.
And teaching myself not to expect anything from them anymore.
Even if what I'm only asking for them is very simple.
Just appreciating my sacrifice for them,just saying thank you.
Its very enough for me.Just only give a little credit.
Instead what I get in return?
I'm became the bad one.
But maybe some people are like that.
They have a narrow,and close mind.
So I realize that I'm blessed compared to them.
Because I can understand for what they are.
It's not my lost.
It's there lost.
So I learn that " You can't really please everybody"

"So why I should change myself for the people who are
not really deserving for what I can give,and shared?"

So I realize that I should not stop reaching for the others who are willing
to listen and appreciate what I can give,and shared.
So here I am writing for the people who are deserving to inspired
what I'm writing on my blog.


I will reveal who's the real me.
The real Angie.
The real Senti (Sentimental) Angie.

So I want to shared this letter.
It's written in a notebook.
(I just hoping that I have scanner so that I can scan the real writings.
Maybe in the next few months we can buy a scanner).

(I collect writings from my friends for a words of inspiration what they can say about me,
its called Autograph).
And in the journey of my blogging I will reveal the things that I carefully kept.


This letter came from Ate Candie.
Friend of my older sister.
We treat here like a family member already.

What she wrote is....

25th day of Dec. 1998

(It's already a 10 years old letter).


Dear Angie,

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year too!

Gie, let me take this this opportunity t express my gratitude
in all that you have done-Your family have done.
Thank you so much!
I will never forget your kindness.

Your know what? You're no longer a stranger to me.
Youre my sister-you are! Gie, I know to live in this world kinda difficult.
You have to sail to through those thigh waves.
But always remember,there is a gold at the end of the rainbow.
I still believe that after the dark there is light.

Let GOD plan your ways-always consult Him in everything that you'll do.
Don't be like me.I did things myself--I always do it in my own way,
forgetting to consult GOD--the source of everything.Look at me--I failed.

But failure is sometimes to be cherished.Why?
It restore new hope in-brought by it.
It challenge us.

Here something to inspires you...

Do you know what is pearl made of?

It came from tears.The tears of the oyster.

Oysters cries also! But look at it.

Tears turned into a very fine pearl-that every woman dream to have.

Very rare and costly is the stone that is why not everyone can have it.

--Now, try relect from it.

Yes, we cry because of the pain we feel.

But pains are just temporary and so all the cryings.

Tears pays!

So cheer up! If I can them why can't you?

HAPPY HOLIDAY!

-Ate Candie-

Priela

ADDITIONAL!

GIE-This is for you!

Taken from the song of MJ. I know this will fit you and I hope it could somehow touch you.

In our darkest hour

In my deepest despair

Will you still care?

Will you be there?

In my trials and tribulations

Through our doubts and fustrations

In my violence

In my turbulance

In my fear and my confessions

In my anquish and my pain

Through my joy and my sorrow

In the promise of another tommorow

I'll never let you part

For you always in my heart.

---Candida---

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This letters of her,give me streght everytime I encounter trials.

Its help a lot to me,in my deepest,and darkest our in my life.

In times of---In times of....I'm only in the four corners in my room.

I"m like a prisoner in my own world.

But I need to be strong.

Because whatever life can bring I must go on.

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I learn that if you feel pain, try to heal the

pain of others and your pain will be heal too...

Because you will be felt better if you can inspired others.

Hope it could be somehow touch you too.

Take a moment and reflect from it...

Cheer up everyone.... ^_^